Mother Mother Story Maps
My Many Creation Stories
MY FERTILITY SUSTAINS ME.
Mother Mother Binahkaye Joy is a dancing mother, fertility priestess, spiritual midwife, sacred nourishment practitioner, afrofuturist bush mother, ringshout synergist, and radiant superconductor of divine creation intelligence. She cares for the mothers in her village by creating soft spaces for them to (re)discover the bounty of their wildest fertility dreams. Mother Mother is the generative pulse of the Fertility Abundance Garden, a congregation for creators and a sanctuary for mothers. She spends most of her days dancing by the light of the sun, bouncing around with the munchkins, nourishing babies from her body, and nurturing her children’s brilliance and discoveries at Wildseed, her family learning lab practice. Mother Mother is devoted to holding space for the mothers, and dreaming up innovative ways that the world can be a softer, sweeter, and more lovingly vibrant place for mothers. She is the co-visionary and principal activator of her family’s love-seeded enterprise, The Family Dances. A budding astronomer who is fascinated by the correlation between the birthing of stars and our fertility codes, Mother Mother is also a writer, sacred storyteller, communiographer, fertile soundscape artist, and liberation technologist navigating life as a black birthing mother and a multitudinous mothering entity. She lives in Washington, DC with her co-creator, Bushman, and their children, Bloom, Wonder, Jubilee, and Revelation.
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Choose your adventure
“Six years ago I was just beginning to find my way into the fertility sermons I felt called to birth. I hadn’t yet connected that the dance rituals I was discovering were also the soil from which my sermons would grow. I was attempting to sit down, open a blank page in my journal, and write. Some things were surfacing, but I couldn’t grasp the enormity of what was coming forth with pen and paper. I had to be in motion, and then the sermons began to stream like water.”
Renaldo de Silva
Life as an invisible mother
I feel, therefore I know.
I often begin my fertility story by saying “I feel like I entered motherhood through the basement” because so much of my early mothering labors were invisible. Deep as I was in the labors of my becoming, for many years I did not feel seen or acknowledged as a mother in the spaces and communities I navigated. Instead, I hid my passionate dreams of being a mother inside my dance practices, and discovered ways that my movements had the power to create more space for me to imagine my mothering realities, even as I was still learning how to trust my fertility codes and more fully engage the fertile majesties of my physical body.
When I trace the spiral of my fertility journey I first experienced the revelation of my motherself in 2005, more than 8 years before I would become a visible mother and give birth to my first child. My Fertility Story: Life As An Invisible Mother is my narrative experiment in weaving together the stories of my life from the moment I felt in my heart that I am a mother through the long labors of arriving at a motherhood that the world could see. This is the story of my pre-munchkins protostar births, and of the multiple cycles of grief and hope, of courage and vulnerability, of feeling extremely shattered and feeling abundantly blessed.
This is the elemental story of what would grow into the consciousness of my life practice, The Abundance of One— the embodied knowing that from my one being, every possibility that is for my creation majesty is available to me. This is a gentle threading and mattering of moments once experienced in isolation. I embrace the sacred knowing that Our Stories Are Our Wealth, and My Fertility Story: Life As An Invisible Mother brings to light the seed stories of my life that started me on the pathway to saying Yes to my calling and becoming a fertility priestess and a Mother Mother.
“From that first moment of experiencing the majesty of my booty consciousness to create more space for me to be inside my own discovery, my own fertility brilliance, my own body brilliance-- everything shifted from that moment. I realized that my body could create its own frequency, and that I could move through life with my own self-initiated frequencies. I could shift and create the vibration I needed in any moment. If I needed joy, if I needed compassion, if I needed warmth, if I needed tenderness-- anything I needed, I could generate that frequency in my dancing body. And then I have more breathing room, and more space and softness to process whatever, to work through whatever.”
